Fears

Describe three legitimate fears you have and explain why they became fears.

  1. Getting lost. I have absolutely no idea how it started. I guess I just like knowing things and being sure of what I’m doing, so if I have no idea where I’m going, I actually try to avoid going there. I go to a church about a half hour away from where I live and I had my friend Meghan drive me there the first seven or eight times so I knew where I was going. The only present I asked for on my birthday my first year of college was a GPS because I had no idea where anything was in this new place, and I had other people drive me places because of it. I’m a little neurotic.
  2. Driving on the Interstate. I’ve mostly gotten over it through an immersion therapy of sorts (I forced myself because driving on I-75 is a direct route from home to school). I’m not crazy, driving 75 miles an hour right next to a semi-truck is terrifying, is it not?
  3. The future. I said it earlier, I like knowing things. I get freaked out when I don’t know things. I can plan my future as much as I want, but no matter what I plan or how much I plan, God has a future for me and the odds of it lining up with my plan are pretty slim. And it’s pretty unnerving not to know what will happen in my life, but I’m learning to trust the Lord more and more every day.
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30 Things

So I found this thing on Pinterest (which, by the way, is possibly the greatest internet invention since Netflix instant stream) and I thought it would be fun to participate. This girl, who wrote this blog, decided to write about herself each day using this list of 30 things. She did it every day for a month, but I won’t necessarily be able to do that because I’m going to Rockbridge with my Wood County Young Life friends in seven days! I’m really frickin’ excited. Anyway, I’ll do my best to do one thing from the list each day except when I’m gone.

So today, we start with 20 random facts about myself.

  1. I have been a Young Life leader for two months and some change and I already get to go on a camp trip. It’s exciting.
  2. My name is Mary Margaret and I go by Maggie. I’m partially named after a TV show character. No surprise in how my life turned out.
  3. My dog’s name is also Maggie. Sometimes my dad calls her Mary Margaret when she’s in trouble. But that’s not quite right.
  4. If we pretend that I live in Dayton (which I pretty much do), I have lived in alphabetical order. Alliance, Billings, Custer, Dayton. Bowling Green kinda ruined my groove.
  5. If I can get away with it, I prefer to go barefoot.
  6. I write all my prayers in a journal because if I try to pray out loud or in my head, I get really distracted and forget what’s happening.
  7. I really love old timey dances. I Charleston when I can. Unfortunately for me, the Jitterbug doesn’t quite work with Lady Gaga.
  8. I make a lot of weird noises. Words are hard, but grunts and squeals usually make perfect sense for what I’m trying to explain.
  9. I watched the entire third season of Parks and Recreation yesterday.
  10. On my first day of my new job, I threw away someone’s food before they were finished eating it. Oops.
  11. I kind of like old comedies better than newer ones. They’re much more clever.
  12. I frequently have dreams in which I marry celebrities or fictional characters. It’s pretty weird.
  13. I check the weather with great frequency. I don’t know if it’s my history as an outdoor lifeguard or my mother’s former addiction to The Weather Channel, but I definitely have a fascination with it.
  14. I’ve never understood women complaining about men leaving the toilet seat up. It takes a millisecond from your life to put it down. It’s not that hard.
  15. I have a hard time falling asleep in silence. The sleep function on TVs is one of my favorite inventions.
  16. I own all ten seasons of Friends on DVD. I watch them when I fall asleep.
  17. My favorite flowers are daisies. They’re so cute.
  18. Despite my love of bare feet, I have more pairs of shoes than I know what to do with. Five of those pairs are TOMs.
  19. I was one class short of getting an honors diploma in high school, but instead I took a semester of creative writing and a semester of film & literature. I’m very much OK with that.
  20. I’ve never actually watched any of the Star Wars movies.

Lost

For sure, you have to be lost to find a place that can’t be found. Elseways everyone would know where it was.
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End

The first step in understanding how the gospel affects your life is understanding sin. We all sin. “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,” Romans 3:23. With the creation of man with Adam and Eve, we were intended to have a life fully with God, but sin has soiled that chance. We are all sinners. Because we sin, we have lost our way many a time. We are all lost souls. Jesus died so that we could find our way back and live a life in a relationship with God. That’s where “I once was lost, but now am found,” from Amazing Grace comes from. But here’s the thing, believing that you are not a sinner prevents you from having a true relationship with your Creator. You have given yourself directions and believe to be on the right path. But you can’t find Jesus – a place that can’t be found – that way. “For if righteousness were through the law, then Christ died for no purpose,” Galatians 2:21. Only by owning up to being lost can you truly find what you’re looking for. Only by being lost can you find the place that can’t be found. God’s family.

We are promised suffering

People often don’t believe there is a God because bad things happen to good people. I’ve heard it asked that if God is good, why are things like genocide or murder so common? To start, man is sinful by nature. We are sinners, so bad things happen in the world. Jesus did not promise us utopia. Jesus does promise:

And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not alarmed, for this must take place, but the end is not yet. For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom, and there will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are but the beginning of the birth pains.

Then they will deliver you up to tribulation and put you to death, and you will be hated by all nations for my name’s sake. And then many will fall away and betray one another and hate one another. And many false prophets will arise and lead many astray. And because lawlessness will be increased, the love of many will grow cold. But the one who endures to the end will be saved.

Matthew 24:6-13

Jesus did die to forgive our sins. Because we still commit them. Sin is not erased from the world. Bad things will still happen until He comes again.

I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important

Let me give you some background on one of my favorite shows, Doctor Who. It’s a super nerdy, British Sci-Fi series on which an time-lord from the planet Gallifrey travels through time and space in a blue police box called the TARDIS (Time At Relative Dimension In Space). Time lords do this cool thing called regenerating, wherein if they start to die, their body prevents them from doing so by recreating every cell, essentially making them a different person. In the television world, that just means that a new actor comes in to play the Doctor when he “dies”. It’s genius writing on the creator’s part. This show can go on for ages, considering it’s been on for fifty years already. But that’s not the point. Because the Doctor can regenerate, he is nine-hundred something years old now. In that time, he’s saved a lot of people and planets and he’s seen a lot of people and planets die. He’s also ruined a fair amount of Christmases in London.
In one of my favorite episodes, when the Doctor meets the only man who can save his companions and those aboard a crashing space liner, he finds that he is a Scrooge-like character with one soft spot – the girl he loves whom he can’t be with. When the Doctor discovers this, he asks the bitter old man who she is. Not wanting to spoil his tiniest hope of ever being with her, he says she’s nobody important. The Doctor rebukes that with this gem:
That means a lot, considering the things he’s seen and done. And you know what? It’s true. And not just in BBC science fiction land where a 900 year old alien looks like a 30 year old man. It’s true for us naturally aging humans, too.
We all serve a purpose in the world. We all play a part in God’s plan.
For the body does not consist of one member, but of many. If the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body, ” that would not make it any less apart of the body. If the whole body were an eye, where would be the sense of hearing? If the whole body were an ear, where would be the sense of smell? But as it is, God arranged the members in the body, each one of them, as he chose. If all were a single member, where would the body be? As it is, there are many parts, yet one body. (1 Corinthians 12:14-20)
Just because you don’t have the talent of public speaking and you can’t be a pastor doesn’t mean you don’t have a job to glorify God. Maybe you’re an excellent cook who can help feed the poor. If every Christian just had the talent of evangelism, people would go hungry. That’s a bit of a dramatization, but I think you get the point. Albert Einstein once said, “Everyone is a genius, but if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life thinking that it is stupid.” If you feel like you have nothing to give, maybe you just haven’t found your gift yet. Keep trying. It’s there. Everyone serves a purpose.

Observation and Knowledge

The two most recent shows that I’ve been Netflixing (can I make that into a verb? Tough tater tots, I did it anyway.) are Psych and Sherlock. They are essentially the same show, but one is set in Santa Barbara and incredibly light-hearted and the other is set in London and incredibly dark and pretty twisted. Also, the latter is almost a word-for-word modern adaptation of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle’s Sherlock Holmes while the former has a hyper-observant cool guy who calls himself a psychic detective with his partner of many nicknames. What I love about these shows is how much Shawn and Sherlock know about a person just by looking at them.

Sherlock Holmes: When I met you for the first time yesterday, I said “Afghanistan or Iraq?” You looked surprised.
John Watson: Yes. How did you know?
Sherlock Holmes: I didn’t know, I saw. [flashback begins] Your haircut, the way you hold yourself, says military. But your conversation as you entered the room — said trained at Bart’s, so army doctor. Obvious. Your face is tanned, but no tan above the wrists — you’ve been abroad but not sunbathing. The limp’s really bad when you walk, but you don’t ask for a chair when you stand, like you’ve forgotten about it, so it’s at least partly psychosomatic. That says the original circumstances of the injury were probably traumatic — wounded in action, then. Wounded in action, suntan — Afghanistan or Iraq.
John Watson: You said I had a therapist.
Sherlock Holmes: You’ve got a psychosomatic limp. Of course you’ve got a therapist. Then there’s your brother. Your phone — it’s expensive, email enabled, MP3 player. But you’re looking for a flat-share, you wouldn’t waste money on this. It’s a gift, then. Scratches — not one, many over time. It’s been in the same pocket as keys and coins. The man sitting next to me wouldn’t treat his one luxury item like this, so it’s had a previous owner. The next bit’s easy, you know it already. [We see a closeup of the back of the phone, which has been engraved “Harry Watson — from Clara xxx”]
John Watson: The engraving?
Sherlock Holmes: Harry Watson — clearly a family member who’s given you his old phone. Not your father — this is a young man’s gadget. Could be a cousin, but you’re a war hero who can’t find a place to live. Unlikely you’ve got an extended family, certainly not one you’re close to, so brother it is. Now, Clara — who’s Clara? Three kisses says a romantic attachment. Expensive phone says wife, not girlfriend. Must’ve given it to him recently — this model’s only six months old. Marriage in trouble, then — six months on, and already he’s giving it away? If she’d left him, he would’ve kept it. People do, sentiment. But no, he wanted rid of it — he left her. He gave the phone to you, that says he wants you to stay in touch. [beat.] You’re looking for cheap accommodation and you’re not going to your brother for help? That says you’ve got problems with him. Maybe you liked his wife, maybe you don’t like his drinking.
John Watson: How can you possibly know about the drinking?
Sherlock Holmes: Shot in the dark. Good one, though. Power connection — tiny little scuff marks around the edge. Every night he goes to plug it in and charge but his hands are shaky. You never see those marks on a sober man’s phone, never see a drunk’s without them. There you go, you see?

It’s brilliant how their minds work. It’s too bad they’re fictional. There is someone who isn’t fictional whose mind works in an even greater way.

Jesus said to her, “Go, call your husband and come here.” The woman answered him, “I have no husband.” Jesus said to her, “You are right in saying, ‘I have no husband’; for you have had five husbands, and the one you now have is not your husband. What you have said is true.”

Jesus knew everything about this woman, much like Sherlock knew so much about Watson, but there’s one big difference: Jesus didn’t have to deduct anything; he just knew. Jesus is God and God knows all of His children well. He has numbered the hairs on our heads (Matthew 10:30). He knows what we’re going to do before we do it and what we’re going to say before we say it (Psalm 139:1-4). He knows absolutely everything about you and He still loves you more than you could ever imagine.

These are my thoughts

I used to have a tumblr where I expressed my thoughts, but I decided I spent too much time on the internet, so I created this blog where I could show the world my thoughts and feelings in a less addictive way.

So let me tell you a little bit about myself. I am currently a sophomore in college studying Special Education. God found me and I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior about four years ago. I have been a leader in a youth ministry called Young Life for about two months or so. I have a very loving family and a senile old dog who shares my name. I like to play the guitar and I recently learned how to knit. I watch more than my fair share of television and movies and I often relate things in those stories to the gospel. So that’s most of what you’ll see on this blog.

Enjoy my writings.

Oh, and if you don’t have an aversion to feet and want to know about what’s going on in my life, feel free to take a look at My Feet, My Journey