When Content in Discontentment

Just bring it to the Lord.

These are the words I’ve had to repeat to myself far too often lately. I can’t do it all on my own, and boy, do I need grace. That’s been made very apparent to me in this season of life. But here I still sit in a spiritual desert, content and unmoved from my fatigue and discontentment. Socially acceptable sins really sneak up on me in that desert. I’m overworking myself, so I’ll take a break and turn on Netflix for five hours. I’m stressed, so I’ll eat an extra three cupcakes. I’ll sleep in a little longer instead of waking up and spending time in prayer because I need the rest. These little things don’t seem like much, but before I know it, I’ve made it an entire two weeks without bringing a single burden to the Lord because I’m busying my mind and finding comfort and rest in things that won’t give me what I’m looking for. When that happens, those little tiny burdens start to pile up. Suddenly I’m Atlas trying to carry the whole world on my shoulders.

Just bring it to the Lord.

Philippians 4:6-7 tells us not to be anxious, but to bring all our anxieties to the Lord. But have you ever started a conversation with a friend you haven’t talked to in a while? It’s strange. You’re not really sure how to actually approach it. We said our hellos, but now it’s been silent for so long. Are they comfortable with this silence? Maybe I should just keep it going. No, say something. What do I talk about? The weather? Too small. Your deepest, darkest sin? Whoa, way too big. How do I start to open up? That’s how it feels in the spiritual desert. When I find myself here is when I most need to approach the throne, but it’s when I least want to. When I dig deep and think about it, I’m too scared to take a step.

Scared? Well, alright. What on earth could I be afraid of? What could possibly happen when I do approach the throne that could be any worse than living life apart from my Savior? Nothing. Life apart from God is literally hell – it is not at all the life we were meant to live. For some reason, though, that starts to sound a little appealing when the fear of taking a step kicks in. But what could possibly happen when I approach the throne that could be worse than hell? Nothing.

Just bring it to the Lord.

There’s nothing to be afraid of. He is absolutely enthralled by you and me. He traded everything to have us and call us His children. He wants so badly to be in a relationship with us that he wrote a 66-book long love letter. He misses us when we’re in the desert. He just wants to talk to us. He’s patient enough to wait for you at the other end of the desert, but He wants you to make it through quickly even more than you do.

Guys, talking to a friend you haven’t seen in a while is daunting. Believe me. But have you ever reconnected with a best friend and it feels like you were never even apart? The love of your life is waiting for you. What are you afraid of? Wherever you’re at, whether you’ve never prayed or it’s simply been too long, just bring it to the Lord, already.

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